I have felt resolute (and still do) about the power and impact of the ideas I hold for people and their perspectives on life. I continue to see value in what I say and receive affirmation that; what I do, helps others. So I have no problem with the concept and the calling from God.
This Sunday, Ps Robert Morris spoke about hearing God and taught a method for hearing Him.I realized while he was talking that I don’t think I have a problem with hearing God. Additionally I don’t think I have a problem acting on what I have heard. I don’t have issues with pressing for it with reckless abandon and I think I have approached it all with strategy, balance and clear-headed intention.
My challenge is being 5 years into a journey and significantly further from the point of origination than I have ever been, and yet still wondering what tomorrow is supposed to look like. In other words, I am not 100% sure what nicely packaged outcome to be resolute toward. So that leads me to ask the question; is the idea of a fixed and clear outcome ie. something that could represent fulfillment when describing my personal journey. Could that idea perhaps be the problem? Maybe we are not supposed to be focused (in our Western thinking) on a destination or a resolve, but rather on the journey itself.
Pom Pom Bruises
As Casey Cook so eloquently said it: I too have pom-pom bruises from all the positive speak and future postulation of well-meaning encouragers and supporters. These efforts to encourage, all point to a clearer tomorrow that is defined and purposeful and specific and in so doing leaves me with some expectations that don’t ever seem to approach fulfillment. At least not so far they haven’t. That is the challenge with prophesy, at some level. It comes from a person, cloaked in God’s authority and so leaves the hearer with some sense of: “It came from God, therefore it must be true and must come to pass”. Heavy expectations. But walk that out over time and repetition and in the end the hearer becomes skeptical of the message and bruised by the pom-pom delivery.
Dr. Victor Frankl wrote in “Man’s Search for meaning”:
Those who know how close the connection is between the state of mind of a man – his courage and hope, or lack of them – and the state of immunity of his body will understand that the sudden loss of hope and courage can have a deadly effect.
Now I am not throwing out vision and focus. Not by a long shot. I believe very strongly in them too. In my opinion clarity precedes focus, and focus leads to impact. I am also not throwing out hope – although I fight to hold onto it sometimes. Hope is the foundation of faith and without faith it is impossible to please God. What I am saying though, is that in the journey of our lives and the manifestation of our unique purpose, perhaps being more attentive to the journey, while keeping an eye on the destination – is a better way to walk it out. Better because it allows the journey to take me where it must, for my own growth, but not so removed that I loose sight of where I am headed.
A focus like this relieves the tension of our ‘immediate results’ oriented world. It allows me to continue intentionally toward the vision God gave me, with whatever clarity I have at this time, but removes some of the performance anxiety because the walking – and what happens to me during the walking – is the point! The destination is simply the natural culmination of the journey over time.
I don’t know if I am going to adopt these ideas as a foundation for my life, but it is what I am wrestling with these days and it seemed like a great summary of what my journey has been like lately.
Also, I am aware that my words carry some weight and I don’t want to lead anyone astray from their position. These are simply verbose postulations from a muse trying to nail handles onto a Jelly-fish.
Phil 2:12 …work out your own salvation…
Two questions then:
- Is chasing your destination wearing you out?
- How could embracing the journey change the pressure you feel today?